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Madea

So, I haven't talked to my for over a month. I honestly don't know at this point if I even want to...again. I'm tired of the ups and downs of our relationship. I'm tired of her period. Let me explain what happened this time. I hadn't even been back in the country for for 2 days before she had her hand out. Telling me she needs money for medicine or bills or something like yesterday. Welcome Home..right?

Let me explain. I don't have a problem helping her out with some cash from time. The thing is my mother lies ...alot. I know for a fact she's called me for medicine and called my younger brother and sister at the same time for the same things. So, she lies. I just hope the money isn't going towards anything that it shouldn't.

I'm just happy to be back in the country. I have the cash so I don't make a issue out of it. I just send the money via Western Union since it's a "emergency". The very same day she calls me back talking about my lil brother needs like $400 dollars for football camp, the next day my lil sisters birthday is coming up and she wants to take her out. At this point I'm thinking " hold up I don't remember saying I Do to you and I sure as hell didn't have anything to do with the conception of those kids" but I went ahead and once again sent the money because I got it and she said it was needed. The very next day she calls again. This time there's some other medicine she needs. Before she even get the request out of her mouth I'm like hell naw. I just sent like $700 dollars and it's pretty fucking funny how these new medicines just keep getting randomly prescribed. But if you need it that bad she better use that camp money. RIGHT? right. She doesn't see it that way and starts going on about how she might die and she hopes she dies. I'm done though. I'm not going there. In fact I decide we don't need to talk for awhile and I don't answer my phone for like a week. That apparently made her lose her mind because she called and left 3 of the nastiest voice mails....I mean cussed my ass out, talked about my boyfriend, just a bunch of UN necessary bullshit. I don't remember much about them word for word but I do remember how the last one ended..." you only get one mother and I'm that bitch". Yeah, I thought she was saved. Any who after that I calmly told her I don't have to take that bullshit from her are anybody else and that was that. Haven't spoken since.

You want to know the truth. I'm cool with that. I said awhile ago that our relationship has been irreversibly damaged since I was like 14. Sometimes I really don't care man. I'm tired of the drama. She really doesn't bring anything positive to my life.

So, why can't I just let it go?

PFE

PFE=Promotion Fitness Examination.

For those that don't know. Professional military education courses are mind- numbingly boring. I'm taking my promotion test tomorrow morning and I've been studying this promotion study guide hard but somehow I honestly feel like it really hasn't been absorbed. I was REALLY trying to make it this time around, mostly for the pay raise, but the more I think about it. I'm not tripping if I don't. I'm about a week away from being the highest ranking person in my department as it is, which threatens to throw me into administration/ paperwork hell. I'm still going to do my best but I'm not stressing anymore.

Hump Day

What up folks?

I've once again been slacking on the posting. I'm simultaneously studying for a promotion test and trying to learn some things for work ( I honestly feel like I need to take a couple semesters worth of classes) but in true military fashion I will learn most of what I need in 3 months of on the job training...whatever. I actual feel better about the job now that I'm actually doing the work. Spending 8 hours a day observing was torture. I'm starting to warm up to some of the people at the job ( takes me a minute to decide if I wanted to bother..lol) people are probably going to think I don't like them or that I'm anti-social in a minute though. These folks have been working in that department together for damn near 20 years and spend a lot of off-duty time hanging out together, while I appreciate being invited out and too house parties and all, I'm sorry I spend the majority of my time working with these folks I don't want to spend my off-duty time with them too. Am I the only one with that issue?

I just had to drop $250 on a new Ipod after I lost my old one. It's cool though I upgraded to a 30GB video. I guess that will be my splurge item. I decided to save the majority of that money I mentioned in my last post. I did by 2-3..ok 4 pairs of new kicks though. Yeah, that's enough splurging.

Another reason I had to get a new Ipod was so I could get my ass back in the gym. Maybe it's just me but working out is horrible without my music. I just can't do it...at least I won't do it. Booboo decided to send me some shirtless pictures. That lil dude went and got sexy..I mean he was always sexy to me but you know now he's ...SEXY. I'm like "damn I got to stay on equal footing". I'm going to work on it. I would post the pic...but um he would kick my ass..lol.


Does anyone know what happened to this group. They were called One Chance signed to Ushers record Label. I just really liked this song.

Hey

I told myself I was gonna post more often..so much for that.

My vacation officially ended a week ago. A brother had to go back to work which I isn't so bad. Mostly because I transferred to a new department, I thought that was what I wanted and it's cool except for.....the getting up at 6am...Hate It.hate it. HATE IT!!!. I've gone nine years in the military without having to get up early. I never knew it was so hard.
Other than that I really like the new job. I don't really know what I'm doing and people tell me it'll be about three months before I'm ready to work alone and even then I'll still have much, much more to learn. Getting the job was phase 1 of my getting the hell out the AF plan. Phase 1 accomplished.

I just finished watching my recording of the BET awards...Here's my review
Overall show---Boooo( Monique used to be funny)
Performances----C+ Once again it was all about the older artists. Pattie shuting down Yolanda, Eddie and Gladys and Erica Badus' tribute to Diana Ross were the highlights in my opinion. Boo to Diddy and 50 for lip syncing( you're f$%^&*&rappers) TI the split personality thing is boring already. Ciara...sigh You're a hell of a dancer. Did she shake her ass in Bow Wows face when she jumped in the audience? Beyonce. I don't know I was mostly checking out her dance partner. That's all I really remember.

I recently received $5,000 dollars. I won't to buy myself something nice. I've narrowed it down to a new bed, a LCD HD TV or I don't really know. I just feel that I should treat myself.


I can't wait to see Transformers. The CGI looks sick.
I can't wait for Wednesday. I'm off Wed and Thursday. This Mon-Fri shit. How do people do it?


Happy 4th everybody.