Only time will tell

I’m sooo not in the mood to be at work right now. I’m sure I’m not the only one though. Well I was going to post about my weekend but I realized that shit was so boring it would put ME to sleep. That’s what I wanted though, a quiet couple of days at the house. Next weekend I have to host BooBoo, his roommate and roommate’s boyfriend at my place. They want to come down to the coast and go clubbing.
I know ya’ll are like, “They have clubs in MS?” Well Biloxi has 8 or 9 casinos. When I say casinos I don’t mean “The Boat”. I’m talking about large Vegas like casinos with 3-4 star hotels, restaurants, high end shopping and clubs. There a new hot spot, Club Z that just opened that they are all excited about.

Speaking of BooBoo. Ya’ll I for real thought the shit was over yesterday. It’s like we where sitting there waiting for the other to just say the words. Long story short he feels like he can’t trust me. I know this all goes back to reason we broke up the 1st time around but I’m like I have not done anything that would make him suspicious of me or anything I’m doing. So, I basically said if you can’t trust me what the hell you doing with me (not that nicely, though). Turns out one of his friends hit me up on yahoo messenger saying they were visiting the coast and was looking for a hook-up or whatever. I have no idea how said friend got my YIM ID but this shit is sounding more and more like some kind of set-up the more I think about it. I’m not tripping though because I told this dude I was involved and No I don’t want to meet him. Apparently he somehow mentioned to BooBoo that he’d talk to a dude whose ID was darnel16 and that we’d talked about meeting or whatever.
So, he presents this information to me, mad as hell, telling me I’m being sneaky and something is going on. All I said was call dude right now and we’ll get this shit straightened out quick, fast and in a mothaphuckin hurry. He tells me, no he’s not calling anyone. We argue back and forth about that and then I remember that Yahoo archives chat transcripts (I love YIM). I bring that shit up and he softens after that and wants to talk.
Which brings me back to asking him why he’s with me if I am the lying, cheating hoe that he obviously thinks that I am? Again, I realize a lot of this has to do with a past indiscretion on my part. That is the only reason I’m trying to be so patient through all these changes he’s taking me through. So we talked and I told him, despite what happened in the past I would never jeopardize what we have and that he needs to let that go or I’m scared we won’t make it. He said he understands and that he’s trying.

I know I talk about the negatives in our relationship a lot, but for real BooBoo is the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. He makes me happy when I am sad…LOL. I mean I can look in his eyes and see that he loves me. I hope he can do the same because I honestly believe he is that ONE that you get in a lifetime. I’ll always regret hurting him the way I did but he decided to give us another chance. I was just happy that he continued to be my friend after we broke up. Only time will tell.

I said I was NOT going to blog about this but I’m done now:)