SO MUCH

I'm sitting at work right now, it's like a quarter to 4( 4am) that is. Did I mention I hate this job, 12 hour shifts, 3days on then 3 days off. That wouldn't be so bad except for the way theses days seem to fall. I'm working like the the next three weekends in a row. See, that's the time I'm supposed to be with my baby.

He decided to go out with his "girls" tonight and by girls I mean boys. BooBoo is not usually very feminine but when he gets around anyone of his three "girls" his ass Queens the fuck out. I don't get it. I told him that's like the unsexiest( that's not really a word, huh?) thing ever. Whatever, he already got me. On the other hand though, when he meets someone he doesn't know he voice drops like 8 octaves( that is kinda sexy). Weird!!! One of his "girls" is moving to Texas this week, so I hope they are having a good time.
Speaking of Texas. My orders finally dropped. Guess where I'm going....Damn if it isn't San Antonio. I soooo did not want to move back there. In fact there are two places I never really wanted to live Biloxi, MS and San Antonio, TX. There's probably a bunch of others places on that never wanted to live list but I just list those two for now.

*Update. I just told BooBoo about the orders and he reacted the way I knew that he would. He's hurt and overly dramatic. I mean I told him that I would be getting orders anyday. I guess he talked himself into believing that it wouldn't happen. Anyway, am I wrong really not feeling or wanting to deal with him getting all upset about it right now? I'm as hurt as he is thinking about leaving, but yeah I need some " we gonna make it work baby" or something right now. *

Chances are, it'll be atleast a couple of months before I leave still. I'm hoping for more time, but really not optimistic about it. I told him that I would do what I got to do for the few months until he graduates to make us work as a couple. He really didn't seem too optimistic about it. I mean if he's not willing to try...Well I can't do the shit by myself. For us to work as a couple he would have to pack up and leave his friends and family behind come July. I don't know if that's asking too much. I don't know, this could be the count down to the end. I've loved him from the first week I met het him and still love him more than two years later..So I'm praying. I wonder if I can get out of the Air Force...Short of coming out to the commander that is.......Lata.